Mintak maaf..

Tak lama lagi puasa...and then raya. This morning a fren passed away, ada liver problem..met him last, abt 2 weeks ago. Mata dah kuning, perut dah memboncit sket..masa jumpa tu I knew he will have to go tapi macam mana I nak cakap 'mintak ampun, mintak halal makan dan minum'. Kesian bini dia and anak dia yg kecik2 tu (kembar)... I hope they'l get by..

Cakap pasal 'mintak ampun mintak halal makan minum' , with this fren, i thot nak tunggu raya..mmg ingat nak mintak maaf masa raya nanti..jadi tak la obvious sgt..tapi tak sempat. Masa jumpa dia 2 weeks ago, mulut tu ringan jugak nak cakap...but how to, mmg tak terkeluar dari mulut..

Other than time raya, mmg takde 'best time' to mintak maaf dah bila u jumpa kawan yg already in that situation..I dah banyak gak buat salah ngan orang...and I have no idea where they are now. When I was 21 or 22, somebody said to me ' U kejam macam binatang..takde hati perut'. All I did was to end a relationship ( a clean relationship, no sex involved ). It lingers on...sampai arini. Mana I nak carik dia..? Macam mana I nak mintak maaf..? There were a few more yg i kena mintak maaf...and I dont even know where they are.. Masa kat hostel dulu, ada sorang kawan lelaki..patah tangan dia masa main bola. Dia tak suka dan tak tahu main bola..tapi I paksa dia main, since dia tatau main, I suruh dia jadi goalkeeper..as a result, tangan dia patah and dia tak bercakap ngan I...I dah mintak maaf kat dia masa last day..tapi dia buat tatau jer..mana I nak carik dia..mungkin kalo jumpa pun i dah tak kenal dia..

So..arini ni, pada masa ni..I nak mintak maaf kat sini..to all my frens (mana la tau..kot2 dorang tersesat masuk space ker..). I'm so sorry. I was young then..very young. And to all my space/ym buddies...Pie, Leen, Liza Burung Antu, Farm, Anis, Dizz, Yan, Arielle, Liliot, Too Protective Malay Lady, Ly : I mintak maaf dari ujung rambut sampai ujung jari. [-o< (emote mintak ampun..)